One Less Thing.

So I've decided I don't need this weighing down on me anymore. I used to look down and away from people, ashamed, when they'd laugh, make jokes, stare at me, etc, in the mall, in school, anywhere. Well, not anymore. I stare right back. They don't get the satisfaction, it just makes me laugh now. Idiots will always exist, be the better person and don't let them get you down; they're not worth it.

I'm a thinker, my mind's always going. One thing that crosses it a lot is how other people judge me from my appearence.. How they look at me like I'm a freak. Don't look at me with that sort of smirk, as if you're in the right and I'm in the wrong.

For those of you that are surprised from what I've said, it's probably because you don't care or notice this. Well, this is because you're awesome, but it happens to me every time I walk out the door. Sometimes in my own home.

Something that really bothers me is ignorance pertaining to this; if that's what it's considered. Not that they even try to understand, to see things from my perspective. The reason I don't let it slide so easily and say they don't know any better, in my mind, is because it's cruel and effected me in negative ways. They wouldn't like it if others were to act towards them the same way. You don't know why I am the way I am, so think about that before you make fun of me for being 'different'. As if it's a crime. I know I'd never be so rude and obnoxious to someone because they're 'different', jeez, the world would be one boring place if everyone was the same. You'd realise that fact if everyone were to be the same, if everyone started coming to school or wherever with the same shirt you have on. That angers people, doesn't it? The same styles, the same look, the same way of acting. Gardens can't work rite without diversity, different creatures and plants work together. We're closer to nature than we think.

People crack the same jokes, over and over, as if they're the first ones to come up with it, as if they're being clever. Funny, real funny. I'm being cranky because I don't cry of laughter along with you? Well, I'm sorry, but I don't exactly yell at you to shut up because it bothers me either. That's what I'd have to do to make people stop, seeing that no one listens to me if I don't break down or yell. Maybe it's the fact that I hardly do anything about these kinds of things that people don't take me seriously. I just don't want to bother people. Maybe i have to start getting meaner, but I won't because I don't think it's right. It's not who I am.

I'm just trying to do my best to live as happy as I can, regardless of the idiots out there that decide I'm negatively different. It's not that I'm trying to be different, it's just how I am. Like I mentioned before, you don't know why I am the way I am, maybe I can't help it. Which is the case. What would actually make me stupid and in the wrong is changing out of wanting to please everyone else. In all honestly, as cold as this may sound, your opinion pertaining to this doesn't matter in the least and the only person I need to make happy is myself. That's the only person I have to face every minute for the rest of my life. Through being myself, people will like me and dislike me. I'd rather people dislike me for who I am rather than like me for who I'm not. If you'd let something as stupid as appearence blind you from seeing someone for who they are, being the reason for your resistence to them, then I don't even want you to like me.

So if you don't like the way I look, then don't look at me, because I couldn't care less of what you think. Try to remember that your opinion's not a world wide concurrence.